I put eyeliner on today to cover up the tired swollen eyes. Eyes that have cried for hours. Eyes that have cried for days. Eyes that have seen more young death than old. Eyes that have squinted in heartache. Eyes that have seen confusion. Eyes that have seen depression. Eyes that have seen pain. Eyes that have seen rage. My eyes have been reminded of past sights, and now are experiencing new sights alike. I woke up this morning and looked at the trees. My eyes saw leaves dying. Leaves falling. And I thought, death is everywhere. Fall in the past 2 years has brought death of a season, death of
Tasha Amy
Uncle Denver
Tor
and now Kyle
Death. Such a morbid and dark subject. Such a depressing time of year. Fall to winter brings death. Today I was sitting with this thought and a sense of peace came over my heart. A calmness so divine I knew it was from something bigger than myself. I walked outside in the glorious sunlight and took strides in awe of the peace I was feeling. I sat down, closed my eyes and began to listen. I listened to the wind, I listened to the dead leaves tumbling in the wind, I listened to my calmness and learned one of the most empowering things I've learned thus far. Through death we learn about life.Through death we learn the sacredness attached to life.Through death we learn what pain really is, and because of this we learn what joy really is too.Through death we learn to lean on each other.Through death we learn to live a life worth living. A quote on my Facebook profile says, "Is what you're living for worth Christ dying for?"but even if you're not religious I ask you, "Is what you're living for worth anyone dying for?" or even deeper yet, "Is what you're living for worth you dying for?"When you can say "Yes" to one or all of those questions before, you are truly living your life to the fullest. Until then, you're (excuse me..) half assing yourself and the rest of the world.I honestly pray with all of my heart that each of you gets a chance to figure out exactly what your life is meant to be. I pray you figure it out so that when your time comes we will all know you died in fullness of life. Until then, take comfort in faith, love, friends and family. Grieve when your heart longs to grieve and then move forward, cherishing every moment you still have.
Tasha Amy
Uncle Denver
Tor
and now Kyle
Death. Such a morbid and dark subject. Such a depressing time of year. Fall to winter brings death. Today I was sitting with this thought and a sense of peace came over my heart. A calmness so divine I knew it was from something bigger than myself. I walked outside in the glorious sunlight and took strides in awe of the peace I was feeling. I sat down, closed my eyes and began to listen. I listened to the wind, I listened to the dead leaves tumbling in the wind, I listened to my calmness and learned one of the most empowering things I've learned thus far. Through death we learn about life.Through death we learn the sacredness attached to life.Through death we learn what pain really is, and because of this we learn what joy really is too.Through death we learn to lean on each other.Through death we learn to live a life worth living. A quote on my Facebook profile says, "Is what you're living for worth Christ dying for?"but even if you're not religious I ask you, "Is what you're living for worth anyone dying for?" or even deeper yet, "Is what you're living for worth you dying for?"When you can say "Yes" to one or all of those questions before, you are truly living your life to the fullest. Until then, you're (excuse me..) half assing yourself and the rest of the world.I honestly pray with all of my heart that each of you gets a chance to figure out exactly what your life is meant to be. I pray you figure it out so that when your time comes we will all know you died in fullness of life. Until then, take comfort in faith, love, friends and family. Grieve when your heart longs to grieve and then move forward, cherishing every moment you still have.
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